Recently I had a very meaningful dream. There were two aspects to the message. The first, was that I am not to leave my husband behind. He will be with me, even though he may not understand where I am, and may even challenge me. I chose him to be my mirror, and he is a very effective one, damn it! 🙂 The second aspect had to do with the book I am writing. An angelic being visited me (in the guise of an older woman friend who I just can’t quite place, but have strong familiarity with). She told me that in order to get my book done, I need an agent. She showed me her art portfolio and it gave me hope. She said that I will write my book, but that an agent is essential to get where I want to be. I really want to publish under Hay House, so I’m going to look into this. I feel such kinship with Hay House’s authors like Dr. Wayne Dyer, Anita Moorjani, Esther Hicks, etc. A feeling, like they are my peers….my contemporaries. This is another sign to me, that I will be writing an important book (s).
I continue to experience Ascension Symptoms. Lately, it has to do with all over body/joint aching and at times, extreme fatigue. The anxiety seems to be gone, although I do get moments when I can feel it rise a little. At those times, I breathe deeply and remind myself that I have worked through all of it and I am reacting to information and energy from the outside world. Yesterday, I went to Kaiser and got an X ray for my feet. I want to get them healed, and not feel held back by them. My body still vibrates, in different areas. Mostly I feel the vibrations up and down my arms and hands. Sometimes it is in my pelvis, thighs and knees. Other times I feel it through my chest. I get intense heat in the palm of my hands off and on. A week ago, I was experiencing horrible headaches every day, especially in the evening, centered in my forehead, or over my left temple and down my left side (jaw, shoulder, arm).
A couple of nights ago, I prayed deeply to God to allow myself to be His Voice in the world. To please allow me to be His Messenger…that I desired that above all else, as it was for my and my family’s highest good. The next morning, my husband was laughing with disbelief and claiming that I was acting crazy early that morning. He said around 2 in the morning, he awoke to hear me speaking very fast (like those radio announcers reading the small text of an ad), but very clearly. He couldn’t remember it all, but remembered certain words like “Angel” “Protector” “Messenger”. I wish I could have remembered it, perhaps I would know what it was about. He said it felt like it went on for awhile. So, God got my message. 😉 I will work on being patient, and trusting that I am exactly where I am supposed to be. The ways and means will be made clear to me, when I need them to.
It’s easy to lose faith and to want to give up on it all. On the face of things, I could convince myself that I had a nervous breakdown 3 years ago and have been in recovery ever since. I could chalk up my physical symptoms to possible fibromyalgia, and other things like that. Except for the profound spiritual experiences and realizations I have had. Except for the evidence that millions are experiencing the same all around the world. Except for channeling Metatron and being given the message that He/I am the Tree of Life, before I even knew that was his Symbol.
I trust and know that I am here on Earth at this time, for a Higher Purpose, as are we all. Each one of us is Important. Every single one….from the homeless on the street, the gang member, the political dissident, the suicide bomber, the murderer on death row, the dictator, the celebrity, the president. Everyone of us. Most will not discover what their mission is, until they pass from this life, and remember what it had been. Perhaps they will choose to come back, to discover and live it. For the rest of us, we awakened or were born awake…and have traveled our path with trust. It has not been an easy road, as we are not alone. We have families, teachers, friends, society, leaders to distract us from our Purpose. And yet, they are also here to guide us to it.
We are in a New Year of 2014. This year promises to be a Banner Year from all spiritual circles. We, as humanity, have shown that we are fed up with the old way of doing business. Change is coming, both micro and macro. How prepared are we? Do we need to prepare, or take it as it comes? I’m inclined to mentally and spiritually prepare for what may come, but also to let go of controlling outcomes. My husband wants to stock up and create a sustainable home and garden. I support this, as common sense dictates. I also trust that all we need will be made available to us.
I feel expectant…
Soul To The World 